Wow.
My Junior year of high school finished exactly 1 hour and 39 minutes ago, and now I sit and recall the events that made this year so meaningful, and I'm flooded with millions of memories of the good and the bad times...doesnt it sound like your typical year of high school? Comes and goes and BOOM you are 37, staring at a random person on the subway while wondering how fast your life flew by. No, not this year. This year I grew up.
Besides having my first boyfriend..mind you at the age of 16, and having my eyes opened to the ultra powerful world of dating and sexuality, ha I knew there was no going back to the innocent girl who worried about being on a one-on-one date with a guy. But most importantly, I learned I could say NO. Sure, it sounds a little cheesy and lame..but believe me, it comes in handy. I'm proud of conserving the purity that I strive to keep for that special man that is sent my way.
Besides that, I also experienced the biggest reality check of my short life...friends can hurt you. Fine, been there, done that..but no, not this year. This year I found out that a friend can actually make you cry. Imagine? Me, the usual somewhat cold-hearted, obnoxiously honest, reliable, best friend actually cried. Now that's a first...keeping in mind that I some times wonder whether I will cry at a relative's funeral or not. Yeah, tell me about it..weird. Point is I cried when my friend told me that her parents were constantly arguing with her because of how much she would text when it was the only thing that helped her not feel lonely before she fell asleep. Month's later I find out this friend is calling me a ******* hypocrite, because she knew all along that I would one day leave her. Yeah I had the urge to go on an angry rampage..but I did not. Thing is, I still think about the day I decided to leave her, and sure she may be somewhat right since we promised we would always have eachother's back one way or another..but hey, how much crap can a person take? I was tired of lies and deciet, so I packed my heart and walked out the door. I still love her though, she used to be such an amazing friend. But she changed and I changed and we where no longer compatible.
And yet that's still not the craziest thing that happened this year. I realized i'm living a life. Confused? ha..let me explain. It's no longer my life. It's more like, I burst that little bubble I used to live in, and now I know that there are people I have to keep in mind, things that have to get done and responsabilities. Lots of them...get it?
And so now an incredible summer awaits, and from where I'm sitting I can hear life knocking on my door..telling me its time to shape up. Junior year is over, and your future awaits, live the now, and prepare for what's to come.
-Superfluous
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